What if.....

I've been thinking for days about this. So I will just speak for myself but I wonder how many of you think the same way. 

So I walk into a room, at first glance I see all the smiling faces. Then I think to myself many different things. First, am I the ugliest in the room, or maybe the prettiest. Am I the fattest in the room maybe I am the thinnest. (Come on Marya you know that's not true) Am I going to be the life of the party or will I be a dud. Will I get stuck talking to the most annoying person in the room oh wait am I going to be the most annoying person in the room? 

All of this in mere seconds of arriving. Forget to the person on the outskirts? What if I actually looked around the room and instead of thinking all about me I thought about you and what you might need. 

WHAT IF when anyone of us went anywhere we kept our eyes and thoughts off of ourselves and we thought of others. What if I went in somewhere wishing to bring the passion of my life to others. What if my eyes were fixated on something far greater than myself. 

What if society stopped looking at ourselves and started looking out wards. What if our eyes were focused on others rather than ourselves? What if we loved people the amount we love our selves. 

Imagine what life would look like? I think we'd find ourselves less angry. I wonder if we would be more compassionate, more empathetic. 

I am going to try to look outside myself & not compare myself  to others. I'm going to see if when I give someone else the attention I give my own self if I feel less awkward and even more joyful. 

What if you tried it too? 

Fabulously Living, Living Fabulously

What is Fabulously living? What is living fabulously? I am sure it's different for everyone. For me it's been a journey. How can one say life is fabulous when they don't have all of the desires of their heart met? How does each person judge their life? I am sure some judge by the amount of friends they have, others how much money they have, and maybe some by the way they look. I am sure there are a lot of other ways.
    Why is my life fabulous? How have a come to a point that I believe this is the truth? There are quite a few reasons.
     First, look some might not believe or agree but I have Christ. I have an amazing God who loves me more than any human ever can! The days that I am sad I am alone & husband less & childless, I remind myself that God loves me so much He is giving what I need right now! He doesn't always say yes to everything at the time we want it. In Jeremiah it say " I know the plans I have for you, declares       The Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future & hope" Jeremiah 29:11. How can one not live fabulously.
     The second reason I am living fabulously is, I have finally come to a place where I don't hate my body. (Well, not everyday). I have a strong body, not a perfect body but you know what? It's the perfect body for me. My crooked teeth are part of me. I'm not a stick but I have curves. Curves aren't a bad thing. My health is good. No medicine to help my body work correctly. At 40 that's pretty good. Most people look at me and think I'm ten years younger than I am. I am embracing the beauty of the woman God created.
    I don't have a lot of friends but the small amount of friends I have are the best one could have. I am overly blessed by the care & love they have for me.
    I am living fabulously clean & sober. I have 13 1/2 years clean living. Truthful living. Living life filled with the truth & telling the truth is the best way to live. If that's not fabulous then what is?
    I have a fabulous job, I couldn't ask for anything better. I love my students. They don't always love me but I hope that one day they see my care for them. Who can't feel fabulous teaching what they love & teaching the gift that God has given.
    I am living this good life. It doesn't always seem like a good life, at times when I am alone, when most of my friends are with their husbands, or children and I am alone. It doesn't seem like the good life when someone has said for the millionth time, what's wrong with you?, or you're too picky. But I remind myself nothing is wrong with me. I'm not picky, I just want to wait on God. I guess I don't need to be alone, I could hang out with the married guys that hit on me, I could go back to the bars, where there are old painful memories of a wasted youth. But I know for a fact that that won't bring me to fabulous living. That will bring me sorrow & pain. Who wants to live a life that brings that?

    I choose the fabulous life. One filled with God's goodness. One filled with fabulous friends, fabulous family & a fabulously fulfilled life. It's not the life I planned when I was younger but I can see its the best life for me now.

What makes your life fabulous? What fabulous things are you doing? What areas do you wish were fabulous?

Thanks for reading, my little blog. Stay tuned to hear of some fabulous things that I believe the Good Lord is leading me to do!