Who am I is the question? Who am I?
This week I was challenged with that thought. I have for quite a while looked at my self through my tainted human eyes. I see all the lies that I have made up in my head, the voices of the kids making fun of me, the fears that take over my truths.
I want to be a fear and fat free woman this year right? I think I need to start with the truths. What are they? Where do I find them? How do I believe them.
I think it starts with the question I was asked this week. Who am I? Who am I in Christ? What are my truths and who, what, or where did those truths come from?
I am pretty sure that my thoughts have been influenced not by the Truth of God, but by the world. The world has taught me, informed me what a beautiful woman looks like. The world has informed me that I will never be enough. You know what, that is a bunch of bull. You see, I am a Christian, I believe what the bible tells me. So, the world at this moment is being run by the Devil himself. Which, then would tell me, that to be occupied with the thoughts that I have, these self hatred thoughts, these fears, that Satan is winning. He wants me to believe the world. Every moment I am believing the world I am looking away from the beautiful truths of God.
God created me in the image of Himself right? God talks about beauty but it is an inward beauty. I remember watching a movie and someone said to this disabled man....Remember God doesn't make trash. He doesn't make mistakes.
I think that to be Fabulous and Forty not Fat and fearful, means that I need to really dig deep into the Truths of God, to know what He thinks of me, not what the world thinks of me. Or lets be honest what I think of me.
Did you know in Proverbs 31, it never once mentions what her size is? It never mentions her face? But as I read this, I get the sense of a beautiful woman. The sad thing is that I have a picture of a beautiful face a perfect body. Its the face the world has taught me is beautiful. In reality, I guarantee she had crooked teeth, I bet she wasn't perfect to the eye.
When I read this I want to be reminded she is beautiful because she cares for first her Heavenly Father, second her husband, thirdly her children. She is beautiful because of the truths she knows about the father.
Just some thoughts.
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised
I want to be the most beautiful woman. A woman that fears the Lord. A woman who knows Who I am in Christ......Not who I am in the world.
